Jay

Ok my first blog it going to be depressing sorry but need to vent. I am uploading all my cousin’s pictures from his power point from his funeral. Sorry bad wording but yeah. I am aching doing this. It hurts to see all his life in pictures. WHY CANT I SEE HIM FACE TO FACE AND MAKE MORE MEMORIES. I AM BEGINNING TO HATE THE WORDS TAKE A PICTURE IT LASTS LONGER. WTF I WANT JAY NOT SOME DUMB PICTURES. GRR. OOPS SAID GRR ALLOWED AND SCARED JOSEPH. Anyways I never knew how death hurt so much. At his funeral everyone told me look on bright side he in better place. BULL he needs to be here back with our family. My aunt and family hurts so bad but then there the people in my family put it aside and pretend it never happened BULL SHIT HE GONE U IDIOTS. TAKE A LOOK DID YOU SEE HIM AT EASTER, THANKSGIVING ANY OF THE HOLIDAYS NO SO STOP PRETENDING. HE GONE AND NOW WE NEED TO STICK TO GETHER AND SUPPORT EVERYONE EMOTIONS. I am tired of feeling a gap of hurt and some of my family just says it ok. NO IT NOT. I love Jay and want our fun memories. Now too talk memories. I remember getting drunk for first time with him and our friend. Jay was so proud and laughed so hard. I remember our fun times as a kid him playing video games with me and stay night at my house. We used to have some good times. Can’t wait for more in heaven. Love ya Jay